The Grief of Ending My Fast

April 24, 2016 at 1:50 PM
After 16 days of fasting, in one hour I will end my fast and enter back into the land of eating. Normally this is an exciting time of anticipation. I think about how delicious the food will taste. Not today. Today I knelt and prayed, and for no reason I can explain, started to cry. Between great sob... [More]

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Find a Place to Pray Out Loud (Fasting Day 16)

April 24, 2016 at 7:19 AM
   I feel sorry for my inner city friends who have a hard time finding a place outdoors to pray out loud. I hate praying in my head. Maybe I have less faith that God can hear a silent prayer than one that can be heard by trees and sunshine. When it's just in my head the prayer feels unfor... [More]

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Fasting Motive Exposed

April 22, 2016 at 3:05 PM
It was around 7 pm and I was deep into the fasting and detox state. I knew that if didn’t turn the TV off and get into some real food, like the bible, I was going to fail. I felt weak and emotionally stretched. The image of me reclining in my Lazyboy and watching mindless TV was the only thing... [More]

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Fasting High (Day 9)

April 17, 2016 at 3:07 PM
Woke this morning greeted by a feeling of joy and anticipation. Ah, there it is. Finally. It’s been a rough eight-day go to get here but it’s sure worth the battle. A big part of finding that fasting high is to get the fast locked in. If I have not fasted for awhile or have let my eatin... [More]

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Fasting Failure

April 10, 2016 at 2:14 PM
Yesterday, day 3 on my juice fast, and it started well. Bible verses were going down like fine wine. Prayer was not one-sided. It was a Saturday so I could spend my whole fasting day in solitude, not forced to tune the Spirit in and out between tasks. I had, staring at the wall time, sitting and jus... [More]

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Fasting on Good Friday

March 25, 2016 at 2:56 PM
“. . . do this in remembrance of Me.” 1 Cor 1:24 I am spending Good Friday alone fasting for the sole purpose to remember. I will think of Jesus and the cross. I think about Jesus a lot. We are in a relationship together. But usually when I do, it’s how I am failing my side of t... [More]

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My 2016 New Years Resolution: More Pain

January 17, 2016 at 2:33 PM
“Saying no will actually create time, one of the most valuable resources we have been given by God. And with this extra time I have painfully carved out, I can then start to say yes to purposeful living.”   At the end of a busy year I hear so many of my friends say, “I cannot... [More]

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Go Where The Most Emotional Resistance Is

May 18, 2015 at 11:50 AM
  I got this title the other night while lying in bed thinking about how routine and forgettable my day was.  I realized while lying there looking up at stucco, that all my most memorial times—days that will never be forgotten—was when I decided to do something even though it ... [More]

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Overwhelming Desire to Eat While Fasting

April 5, 2015 at 12:47 PM
I have been fasting for two weeks. Today after coming home from a very long and boisterous Church service, I walked through the door to my apartment and had this intense desire to eat. The hunger was so overpowering it honestly reminded of sexual lust. Crackers and cream cheese with a naked green ol... [More]

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Facing Emptiness While Fasting

April 4, 2015 at 11:23 AM
While writing this I am deep into a 4 day Easter fast and I’m forcing myself to be alone with no escapes. No TV, no talking on the phone, no surfing the web. I’m allowing myself to read, and of course prayer and meditation. I will go for walks in secluded places. That’s it. The fir... [More]

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