The Big Bad God-Monster

March 20, 2013 at 6:44 AM

I had some early morning thoughts about this whole JUDGEMENT SEAT OF CHRIST thing. It was bugging me in a bad way. For some of us who have been weaned on oppressive religion, where an unhealthy fear of God’s judgement was used as a whipping-rod to subdue the unruly child within, the imagery of a huge God-Monster sitting high on a massive throne, glaring down at us filthy sinners, demanding with a booming voice, “give account of your life!” well, the image sucks to be honest. When I think about it, it makes me feel very alienated from the Aba Father that I have grown so close to during the best moments of my spiritual journey. But sitting in the car in the parking lot of my work this morning, battling old feelings of rejection and fear, I realized it has to be something else. I must be reading into what JUDGEMENT SEAT OF CHRIST is. 

Then I thought about Who will be sitting in that chair. It will not be the great accuser, the one who has worked on trying to destroy my self-image for as long as I can remember. It will not be my father or mother who blundered their way through parenthood, ripping and damaging three trusting kids as they tried to keep their own heads above water. 

It will the same person who allowed little kids to crawl all over him when his disciples tried to whisk them away. He will be the one who gently said “Mary,” who proclaimed, I will never leave you or forsake you. Who blasted religious leaders for heaping laws on the backs of the people without lifting a finger to help. He will be the one who touched the leper, filthy street people, grubby outcasts, and allowed a prostitute to wipe his feet with her tears. On a personal level, I will know him as a sheep knows his shepherd. He will have ugly crucifixion scares all over his body, even visible on his forehead, because he loved me so much to die so I don’t have to. But most importantly to me, the one sitting in front of me will be same one who said to a 18 year old, drug addicted kid, that no one wanted anything to do with, including my own father, “I want you to be my son,” with a passion and love that literally knocked me to the floor. Anyone else in the chair would suck, but I’m cool standing in front of Him and giving an account cus He gets me and I respect and trust Him.


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Hi Ron, thanks for being so honest in your writings.

I'm reminded daily of how much He loves me and that I'm the apple of His eye.  Eph has been my focus for a while....just read what Eph1:3-6 says in the message Bible:

How blessed is God! And what a blessing he is! He’s the Father of our Master, Jesus Christ, and takes us to the high places of blessing in him. Long before he laid down earth’s foundations, he had us in mind, had settled on us as the focus of his love, to be made whole and holy by his love. Long, long ago he decided to adopt us into his family through Jesus Christ. (What pleasure he took in planning this!) He wanted us to enter into the celebration of his lavish gift-giving by the hand of his beloved Son.


Wow, wow, wow.  That last paragraph just floored me.  I'm reading through your blogs as part of my preparation to fast and God is blessing me through you all over the place.  Thank you for your honesty and transparency.



thanks for this ron.. helps me a lot to go through what I am going through today
.. I quoted some of your writings in my blog


United States Julie DeWitt says:

What wonderful words!  How refreshing to come across someone who truly knows the heart of God!  How beautifully stated!  Thank you so much!  You got me weeping!  God IS Good!  He IS Love!  And  I believe the judgement seat of Christ, when He looks at a believer, a child of God, one who is in Him and He in them, will judge us RIGHTEOUS and NOT GUILTY, just as He did on the day we were born again!  Halleluiah!


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